This is a track that is still in progress that I’ve posted but I wanted to share a little background as to its meaning. This song represents a dual perspective of a love triangle, that of the guy who is in love with someone who…


The End of an Era

As I mentioned before, I have totally changed direction with respect to what I’m putting in my body. So to that end, I put together a collection of some of the dishes I’ve made in the past. Some of them are just ridiculous. It was interesting looking back at some of them realizing that I will never eat some of those things again. It was delicious though..lol



2 Drops in a Bucket

How are you today mein kinder? This is how my dance teacher in high school used to greet us. It’s odd that I would remember that, but I have been known to retain bits of totally random useless information. Go figure.

The other day 10/21/15 was “Back to the Future Day”. I’m quite sure you’re sick of hearing about it but it struck me that in many cases whenever we have predicted how advanced we as a people will be, we always come up short. This speaks volumes on our perception of ourselves versus the reality of very slow progress. We are capable of way more than is our current situation. Today we could end hunger, poverty, war, pollution, racism, sexism..etc, but there are those in power that use these things to their advantage to stay in power. It makes me wonder if we as a people will survive our own greed.

Anyway..I just wanted to break the silence to reach out and connect I also have a couple of joints I’m working on that I want to share. The first is a combo of 2 tracks, one a house flavored track called “Get it Started”. It’s a little tribute to mi preciosa DJ and Radio host Shelli Diego. The second movement is a little piece I put together called NetFlix and Chill..I’d been hearing that term a lot and decided to try and write some lyrics around it based on the sexual tension of that situation. The other piece is just something that came from being in a situation where many of us have been, being in love with someone that’s involved with someone else that you know is feeling you.

Hope you like them..peace


Rumors of my death

Yeah, it’s been a minute since I’ve posted yet again. I’ve been going through a lot of changes. I got real sick a month or so ago. I was with my cousin in Sam’s. I started feeling a little lightheaded and I decided to check my blood pressure. It was really high.
I joked to him that I was going to die, but secretly I was really concerned. The next day I woke up with the worst headache of my life. I couldn’t swallow and my face was swollen. It turns out that I was suffering from sinusitis, along with two inner ear infections and swollen glands. I was running a fever, and I was suffering from vertigo. I decided right then and there if I would survive, I would do everything in my power to take better care of myself. Being as how I couldn’t eat anything anyway, I went on a liquid diet.
At first I was just drinking water because I couldn’t make it to the store, but when I did, I decided that I would start juicing again.
The best thing for headaches or a hangover is vegetable juice. Tell your friends.
After a couple of days of juicing, I started feeling a little bit better, but I was still very weak. Since I wasn’t eating anything solid, I decide to take the opportunity to lose some weight.
My diet consisted of vegetable juice and fruit juice. if I felt hungry in between, I would have a glass of really cold water with lime juice. This curbed my appetite tremendously.
After 14 days I lost 25 pounds. I was exceptionally weak but I felt like a new person was emerging inside of me.
To help with my sinuses, I made sure that I stayed in a room with an air purifier. It was, I realized, September, the beginning of allergy season for me, which is always major drama.
As the pounds melted away, I started feeling myself having greater mobility. I didn’t realize how fat I had gotten. when i started, I was 255 lbs. Today I am 225.
I have also decided to give up meat. This is something that I’ve tried before for a short period of time, but I decided to make a permanent life style change to eliminate meat from my diet. I also decided to give up sugar, which is something I had done before but kind of fell back into.
When you embark on any diet, you suddenly become aware of the things you can’t have. After a period of time, you will also become aware of how much pressure and brainwashing is in advertising to influence your eating habits. You literally cannot watch any sports without there being an ad for something that is completely unhealthy.
Getting back to my story, I had a migraine that lasted me for 36 hours. I know exactly how long it lasted because I did not sleep during that entire time. I literally thought it was the end for me. This caused me to start thinking about what preparations I have made for dealing with my death. Feeling that it was a strong possibility, I started taking notes to send to my sister on how to handle whatever remained of my assets. After making that recording I was totally bummed out and a little disappointed, so I decided that I was not ready to die just yet. My mission would be to let nature bring me back. I would use every trick in the book I knew to get me back on my feet.
After the first two weeks of liquids only, I gradually started adding solids back to my diet. I would have one solid a day. I started with a banana, then oatmeal. I would prepare the oatmeal plain, adding a little raw honey. in between each meal I continue to have the cold lime water to cut down on my cravings.
The pounds melted off of me, but I felt very weak. Concerned that I was moving too fast I decided to have egg whites and tunafish as a protein substitute. I know this is a violation of my strict no meat policy but it was only temporary to regain my strength. I felt it was OK as long as I wasn’t eating red meat. this is where I am now. Ultimately I am going to go back to vegetables only because I know that it is much healthier for me.
There is an argument that people repeat when it comes to not eating meat. They always say that we have canine teeth which is designed to tear flesh. Using that argument you might as well say we should still be climbing trees because we have toenails.
I have done a lot of research online to get recipes that I can enjoy during my transition. For my meat substitute I am going to use tofu going forward. there is a psychological barrier that you have to overcome when you’re making dramatic changes to your eating habits. Most of that comes from the influences that I mentioned earlier. When you step back and take a look at what food companies are doing to you, you will understand that brainwashing is a real thing.
Most of you have probably seen videos of what happens to cows and pigs in slaughter houses. If you haven’t, I suggest that you Google some YouTube videos and get educated. When I see people on line in the drive-through’s, to me they are no different than the pigs and cows being led to slaughter that they are consuming. The food industry is one vast system of control that is designed to sustain itself even at the risk of killing people. Why? Because people are a replenishable source. Their goal is to make money anyway they can. Any attempts that we have made as citizens to get them to identify what they are really feeding us have been thwarted or completely ignored. The next time you buy juice in the supermarket, look at the ingredients. In some cases you will see things like natural flavors. Think about it, what are they talking about? That means absolutely nothing as far as detail is concerned but they are allowed to get away with it.
So this is where I am right now mentally. It’s amazing that as you grow older, you may go through a big change in your perspective of life, but you never expected to happen again and again. The things I see now, I am shocked that I was ever blind to.

As is customary, I am going to share with you some photos that I’ve taken, and some music.
Get It Started (NetFlix and Chill)
I hope that in your lifetime you experience the power of enlightement. By enlightenment I don’t mean a greater understanding of a concept, but an awareness that changes your view of everything around you. Peace


Sunday in the park

To the guys playing soccer in Mercer Park today, I will post your pictures by tomorrow 

Para los chicos que juegan al fútbol en el parque Mercer hoy, voy a publicar sus imágenes para mañana

It’s a trap..

I figured I would have some fun and put together an intro that would expand on the theme of the track “DatAss” to kinda explain where it’s coming from.

I hope you like it.

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Under Covers..

These are a few cover concepts for a few songs that I wrote. links to the tracks are below each of them.

This first one is from a shot I took of the first thing I saw that morning from my perspective. It was a very bright morning. I lay there thinking how fortunate I was just to be alive and thought I would try to capture that feeling artistically. The result was the song “Shine”

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This is a cover to my song “The Time Traveler’s Blues”. The song itself is about May December relationships..an expression of my own personal experiences with younger women. The struggle between desire and rationality..wondering what the future holds as we all do in relationships. Finding ourselves taking inventory on our lives and the things that we want. Justifying that which you know is doomed to fail..

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Reaching out

As promised.

I just want to say thanks first for the positive response. Feels good.

For those of you that are connected to me on G+, (a fantastic bunch by the way) You may have seen these but here I hope to add a little more flavor by sharing my thoughts

This shot was taken some time ago. Boomer, who was the best dog ever, and I had gone to the park. This was not long after I’d gotten him. He was a rescue dog and my first pit bull. He taught me a lot about mysef…life. At this time, I still wasn’t too sure of how he’d behave and he was feeling me out..each of us tesing each other’s boundaries. I was taking some pictures of what was becoming a beautiful sunset. He walked out in the field as if to get a good view and stood there watching the sun go down with me. I don’t ever remember having a dog that was remotely interested in the sky. It was a moment that connected us in a very deep way

I will be the first to admit, I have a very strange face. I look very different at times..almost chameleon like.I’m not really one that’s into selfies because it’s draws too much focus on me, but at the same time, I am attempting not to feel withdrawn. I like to experiment with portraits and being alone I have a limited choice of subjects. This pic was more of a note to myself

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This pic is one of my faves because I was surprised how much of the reflection I was able to capture. This is an arch at River Walk Park. There are a series of them. Each representing a different industrial period in human history. I felt like I was able to appreciate the artist’s vision from this perspective.

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